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Tuesday, 03 March 2009

Things have been...interesting lately [entry2.3.09]

Okay, as the title of this blog states; the past few days have been depressing, hilarious, and stunning all bunched up into one lovely little package.
Last week started with me being incredibly sick, which is something that never happens really. It was to the point that I couldn't even stand up. Not fun.
Once my cold was over; I went to see the new street fighter movie [which was amazing by the way; I highly recommend it to any fan of the games.]. Being with Amie rocked as always; and kept me from thinking about a lot of shit I really didn't want to go into or come to terms with.
Then there was Sunday night. I ended up seeing Andrew and long story short we are back together again. I love this boy to death; and I'm not giving him up for anything this time around.<3

Sunday, 01 March 2009

social darwinism v.s. a compassionate society....which is flawed?

I've been doing a bit of reading; and a bit of looking into two very diverse things lately: compassion and social Darwinism. How on earth can anyone differentiate between what is correct and what is flawed? We are basically choosing what makes us progress as a species; our ability to evolve and survive like the animals we are (ohh is that going to piss some *ahem* people off); or is it our ability to be an understanding civilized people? it seems as though most people who follow social Darwinism refer to survival of the fittest like they are on the top of the food chain and have every ace in the hole. People who are up for equal rights and helping the 'weak' and the inferior seem to have a more humbled hospitable attitude. I found the paradox interesting and wanted to elaborate on it...if anyone knows a good deal about this let me know. I'm throwing this out here now; I consider myself a compassionate person. While I find social darwinism intriguing because of the ideas that these people follow; i don't condone it. I think we are beyond needing to weed out defective human beings; and there is a reason we have a balance between the so-called strong and weak. I believe our real barrier right now is religion; simply because I personally feel that we would be much further along if people didn't rely on fairy tales; but that's just me...[tobecontinued]

Friday, 13 February 2009

No, you can't save lives. You're gay.

Why is it that you cannot donate blood if you're gay? I've gone into this discussion with people numerous times, and it usually falls into the simple fact that up until 1985 there was a 60% chance that homosexual males had HIV/AIDS. Wait, up until 1985. So why the hell is it alright to segregate someone because of their sexual orientation? It is just as likely, if not more likely for any straight individual to have HIV/AIDS. Hell, being promiscuous is more or less encouraged in our society, why should someone who is a homosexual have to take the heat? Anyone who knows me, or knows my past, knows that my aunt and my uncle died of AIDS, due to my uncle being a heroine addict. This has lead me into having a strong resentment towards people who do drugs and take it lightly...but that's another issue altogether. My point, it's just stupid for people who are in desperate need of blood to turn someone down simply because they are gay. They have to screen the blood anyway, so why be assholes. Personally, I am under the weight limit, so I can't donate blood anyway, but given I did have the chance to do so, I wouldn't be willing to support people who are so goddamn small minded. If someone i knew needed blood I would gladly help them, but I have no remorse towards an organization that has such backwards views. Sucks to be them, I have 0+ blood, a very good type to have, and more than likely a vampire delicacy XP.

Tuesday, 30 December 2008

Currently
Siren Song of the Counter Culture
By Rise Against
Swing Life Away
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..Seasons..

run with me in the cold night air
let everything fade away
if you dare

call my name out in the snow
watch the icy river flow
snow flakes being washed away by it's energy

sing inside your car
and let me hold your hand as we drive
through the eerie autumn night

can I let these memories go?
or should I simply let them grow?
stinging my heart like the summer we fell apart

do you remember fireworks in July?
the fiery madness that illuminates the sky?
We watched them until mosquitoes ate our flesh
and we nearly laughed to death.

Can you hold me like you used to?
and we can smile and pretend that everything's okay.
and in my memories you can stay

Our dreams can be ever expanding
our hunger for love so demanding.
when we kiss i feel dismissed from all of this.

Fall into the spring time.
the greens and yellows shimmer with the reds and blues
and all the somber hues
that seems to light our hearts those days

can we go back to winter?
Surely things were cheery there.
After all I had your hand to hold at night

Can you blind me now?
I'm so sick of all this seeing.
Dreaming and longing, but never being.
but then again my questions get lost in blatant statements.

Can we leave some room for imagination?
Or should we lay this out and let it fall into play?
You will always be in my heart.
and that is where you'll stay.

Note:If there's anything anyone would like to recommend I do for this poem, please let me know.
No, it isn't structured at all. I tried to make it flow, but is very much so a free verse poem.
No, this isn't based off of me specifically, nor should it be taken as an indication of hardship in my life. I just wanted to tell a story.
Also, this is really sloppy, and I haven't written any poetry/stories in forever so it's really choppy. sorry =\

Friday, 26 December 2008

Currently
The World Ends With You
By Square Enix
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No Diet or exersize required!

Just take this pill and magically you will become thin with massive curves and be adored by everyone!
Yeah, I'm sure anyone who goes online sees all these adds on a random web page.
All you have to do is take this pill or call this number and you will be approved for a new product that allows you to have the body you want without any work. Has anyone talked to anyone in gee I don't know...the real world who finds these miracle products to be successful? I know at work we mainly get over weight people who continuously buy weight loss pills. Ermm...wouldn't be easier to just put a little more effort into losing weight as opposed to spending all that money? Just an idea.
Honestly, I know I shouldn't be making jokes because I am lanky, but I usually get ragged on all the time by people who are umm....pleasantly plump? So I really don't care anymore. Massive curves cause back problems and are really no good for anything unless you dream of becoming a sex icon. My goal is to hit the 100 lb mark this year, and by healthy means, I love food, so I would never limit my intake. Being wiser with calories wouldn't hurt, and making exercise fun wouldn't hurt either ^^